It is time to move on

Kansa was lost to me on April 6th 2017. She told me that she wanted me to be happy. Well my loosing my best friend and having my world collapse around me, put me into a tail spin.

I was in and out of the hospital for mental health issues more times than I could count, over the last eight months. But much of that was the way Darlene was treating me.

I was forced by circumstances to give up both my job and my apartment and move in with Darlene. Where I was getting grief for just being in the same room. I was already suicidal. She did not help.

As I said before it is time to move on. I will always love Kansa and Darlene showed me how I must have been while Kansa was in the hospital. I have no question as to why my marriage ended.

Darlene showed me first hand. Kansa would never becoming back but I learned how to be a better person.

Life is a story worthy of legend.

We all have our survivor stories, this one is mine. My true life adventure of survival starts when my wife of the last seven years decided to abandon me in favor of her concilor and lover.

This story talks about the struggle every man has after his wife betrays him. Only I have a twist on it. I am blind and my wife was my transportation to work, the person who filled out paperwork and just generally helped me function in every day life. This story is mostly about these struggles. I am hoping to inspire the reader to work for the successful resolution of conflicts within marriage and learn to communicate better.

With in the pages of this book, I talk about the basic struggles that other people have had to overcome. My favorite story is that of Daddy D. But others also come to mind.

Most of you know my own story and all of the stuff I have had to go through as I watch my vision fail more every day. But others have overcome their struggles and in the process even found success. 

Let me tell you about one man who lost his family to an apartment fire and uses his story to help his local fire department educate others about the importance of being prepared.

Glenn Anderson lost his wife and two girls to an apartment fire that started in a laundry shoot that was mistaken for an ashtray. In stead of putting his neighbor in jail, Mr. Anderson saw a need and took Mike Timms on a tour from school to school across Australia, the two men talk about forgiveness and handling grief. Glenn’s story is going to be one of the first that I talk about in my new book “The Survivor.” Over the course of this book, I too am learning how to forgive.

King Judah: aka “Eric Hawkind ” is the CEO and Founder of Black Satin Radio, who lives in Hinesville Georgia and has been writing for over 15 years. I asked the King a few questions that may inspire a more in dept interview later. Through the interview I learned that he was deeply inspired by Rovenna Martin who was encouraging him to put his thoughts to a page and helped guide him on his initial Journey on a road that lead to his career as a songwriter. Every child should has such a mentor.


AA= Wow thanks for getting back to me. I don’t do multi media any more because my wife packed up all of my equipment while I was in the hospital fighting for my life, and filed for divorce and moved all but a plate, a fork, pan to cook on and a mattress to sleep on. This has been on hell on a year for all of us.

So if you don’t mind doing an interview over massager it will be read in our magazine. I will send you the link once it is up.

So how did you come up with the name Black Satin Radio and what is the vision behind it.

KJ= Black Satin Radio name came from a poem I wrote called of the same name. Black Satin is smooth and silky and poetry should be of the same thread also to me.

The vision was very simple, it is to help struggling artist not to just get their material out there but for them to use the platform to rehearse and to shake the butterflies off their work to be a better performer. We never used to the vision to be critical but to help them to write better by giving tips on what could be said better and always have a good pace.

AA= Your vision is wonderful. Have you been able to inspire many Artists to do the work it takes to find success in an industry that seems to thrive in competition? How hard is it to get onto the industry? People tend to think that you have to know someone or have a bit of luck to get noticed. How true is this?

KJ= Through the grace of God have been an inspiration to quite a few artist. Kiley Brown, Serena Buttifli Brown, Timothy Dodley, Airealle Glynn, Rovenna Martin, Dawn Deep Rivers Blanchard to just name a few. Bill Peters was a great inspiration to me and I just took theblnowledge he gave me and try to build on it.

I believe for a artist to be in this arena it takes commitment morethen anything. Know what genre you are good in and stay in your lane until you are able to venture to other styles of writing. To be notice depends on your on visibliity and your work. Knowing someone doesn’t mean you have the skill to compete and luck depends on the rabbit foot you carry but one thing in found that is true is that the character of your work will carry you further then just some smooth words. What seen your words saying and how meaningful is it to the hearers?

AA= What got me following your work is you trust in our Creator. Have you found that your faith has attracted others to work with you?

KJ= Yes yes yes, that is so essential. My faith is very important to me. I chose the name Judah because of my faith. Judah means “Praise” in HEBREW. That is my message at the end of the day. No matter what you maybe going through you can pray and praise your way through. But also, learn that life is a learning experience. Why go through a certain situation when if you are not going to learn from it and pass the knowledge to someone who is going through what you just went through. I do my best to write from life experience and not fantasy. Readers know when something is real or not authentic. 

Others love working with me because I make writing easy. Fancy words does not make a good poem. Precise coloring of words do. Every word in every stanza has a place.

AA= This is what I needed. Thank you. I will send you the link once I have published it. God Bless.

KJ= Ok thank you for the opportunity

My divorce has served as a wake up call to me. It showed me that I was needing to do better. Kansa accused me of always being angry and in fact I was. My prayers go out to the woman who gave me my life back after wanting so much to put an end to it. I am sorry that she felt that she had to make me her enemy so I would let her go, but what be I do now?

The men mentioned in this article are inspiration for me because they are able to turn disaster into success.

My Worst Fears Have Been Realized.

I got home from work on Friday of last week and diesel off only to be woken up by Kana’s voice calling me. At first I was extremely happy to know that she was out of the hospital. Then I went into the living room.

My wife was surrounded by her family who came to Dublin Ireland from Vancouver, Washington in the USA, to support Kansa’s discussion to file for a divorce. As I went to give my wife a long awaited kiss that was not returned, she told me that she was going to be staying with her mom for a while. At that point Kansa’s sisters broke away and began to raid our home. It was a well planned escape that the Benet woman seemed to have mastered. I was given the divorce decree as they left.

Over the last few days Kansa has dissolved and taken down Anarchy Empowered. Stolen a large some of money and closed all of our bank accounts and dismantled our e-commerce payment networks. 

Kansa has 4 sisters and a mother who have all been through a divorce. They are masters at revenge but all I ever did was Love Kansa. Why do I deserve this?

However, I have come to terms with her absence, lovingly missing her for the rest of my days.

My life had to change and hopefully I can change for the better. Kansa taking her name off the lease and giving me all kinds of personal things to work on means that I am on my own. I knew that my $740.00 a month is not going to pay the $765.00 that is my rent.

I bought in a roommate to split the cost of rent and to keep me sane during the transition.